Sunday

Another Tough Week

Last week started out really nicely with great time spent with friends online and offline.

And I worked on this painting.


And I added something to my diary every day.

And, on Thursday, I found out, that I can get 10 sessions with a therapist for free and registered for the first one. And I experienced real support and understanding in the social services.

Besides, the same day, 3 employers invited me to an interview. Two of them wanted me to start working right away.

I really liked one of the tailor shops. But it's a new business, and the income is too insecure.

The third one is a supermarket with really long working days, but at least guarantied minimal wage. Now, I'm not sure, what to do...

In addition, a tooth started bothering me on Wednesday. It has been problematic for years, and, mostly, it stopped aching after a couple of days.

This time, it seems to be really bad. I don't have money for the dentist. But, if I don't get it fixed, I, most probably, can't start working anywhere...

That's why I loved working from home, as I could do it even being sick and in my PJs. But that's not an option for me any more I guess.

So, I'm feeling really powerless, trapped in my body and circumstances again...

And Robin Williams took his life on Monday...

Thank goodness for the great course with GP Walsh! It helps me to hang on. (BTW: I can still get you in for $97. Just let me know, OK?)

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14 comments:

Nicole Beadwright Campanella said...

I am sorry to hear things are not good right now. You are very expressive in your art and your feelings show.
Sending blessings
Nicole/Beadwright

Rita Juse-Cirkse said...

Thanks, Nicole!

Deanna said...

Sorry to hear your struggles continue Rita, sending you heartfelt wishes for good health and blessings.

Rita Juse-Cirkse said...

Thank you so much, Deanna!

Beth Niquette said...

Your artwork has such pathos. A lovely lovely piece.

Irish Cherokee said...

A beautiful painting Rita. You are very talented. Will pray for you for good health and healing.

Blessings
Jim

Will Jelbert said...

I hope a dentist reads your blog and offers to help you :) For the pain focus on what you can feel day by day and try not to imagine what it will be like in the future. Notice yourself using words like 'probably', 'circumstances' and 'anywhere'. These are all abstractions and make problems bigger than they need to be and make you feel worse than you need to feel. Instead, opt for the most specific words you can lay your fingers on. Instead of 'circumstances' say: 'looking for a job with toothache'
You can do this :)

Rita Juse-Cirkse said...

thank you so much, everybody!

Deepa Gopal Sunil said...

There is definitely sadness conveyed thru ur art...Hope everything gets better soon!
Deepa
http://deepazworld.blogspot.in/

Indigene Theresa said...

Rita, I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling as you are! Sending you lots of positive energy. I'm not sure if you have this in your country or not; but some of the large university schools offer free dental care. You would be worked on by graduating seniors. Maybe they have something similar in your country; it's worth checking; just a thought.

Dorothy Donna Parker said...

Oh Rita! You are having such a rough time. I'm sorry you can't work from home - it is just so very convenient. Also hoping you are able to get the tooth looked after, you simply cannot go around with that kind of constant pain. thinking of you, sending love and light. xoDonna

Rita Juse-Cirkse said...

Thank you so much for all the support, dear friends!
Theresa: we might have that option, but only in the capital city.
Donna: I don't have any pain right now. :)

Cindy D. said...

Lovely and peaceful painting! And good luck with the dentist, ugh! (You might see if there is a dental school in the area, or at least a dental clinic, and see if they can work with you. Tooth pain is nothing to ignore!)

Rita Juse-Cirkse said...

Thank you so much, Cindy!
Didn't go to the dentist. The inflammation is back to the usual level. Need to get the money from somewhere first. And I'm seriously thinking of changing my dentist. This is the second tooth that behaves like that after the procedure.